So I totally missed my self-imposed deadline...

But I'm okay with that (and not at all surprised because I procrastinate like a freaking champion)! The reason I'm okay with this Deadline Fail is because I managed to get a lot of work done anyway, and even came up with a few delightful twists. I'm happy with the work so far, and even though there are parts that I'm not so happy with, I know that I will improve upon them when I start revisions. Which I'm really excited for, by the way. I love revising! I never thought I would actually enjoy revising so much. It always struck me as a tedious process, but it's not, at least not for me. I find that when I'm revising, I come up with more sophisticated and interesting ideas. There's something about revision that brings out the best writer in me. I can say the same for showering and taking long walks.

My new deadline is the end of the month, and I think I will definitely meet this one. Here's hoping I don't slack off too much since I'm so incredibly good at procrastinating. And for all the procrastinators out there, I leave you with this awesome procrastination chart from Hyperbole and a Half (a hilarious new site I stumbled upon that you should totally check out.) It's uncanny how accurately this chart mirrors my thought process.

almost there

Deadline: June 15

I'm giving myself a deadline to finish TAINTED FROST. I'm so close to finishing, but self-doubt is slowing me down considerably. I'm hoping this deadline will give me a huge nudge to just get it over with, especially since I plan on revising it anyway. This is my second draft, but technically, it's more like a first draft because I started over from scratch last year. This version is almost nothing like the original I wrote in 2009.

Anyway, here's hoping I reach the deadline. I can't wait to start revising! Again! Is that weird?

Words of wisdom and stuff

“If you want to write, if you want to create, you must be the most sublime fool that God ever turned out and sent rambling. You must write every single day of your life. You must read dreadful dumb books and glorious books, and let them wrestle in beautiful fights inside your head, vulgar one moment, brilliant the next. You must lurk in libraries and climb the stacks like ladders to sniff books like perfumes and wear books like hats upon your crazy heads. I wish you a wrestling match with your Creative Muse that will last a lifetime. I wish craziness and foolishness and madness upon you. May you live with hysteria, and out of it make fine stories — science fiction or otherwise. Which finally means, may you be in love every day for the next 20,000 days. And out of that love, remake a world.”
-Ray Bradbury

Dream big

 Every time I sit down to work on my current WIP, TAINTED FROST, I declare to my mom that "I'm working on my future best-selling novel." Obviously, I don't mean that seriously, but people always say to dream big, so that's exactly what I'm doing. I don't know if this novel will ever even be published, but somehow just saying those words "best-selling" gives me a little bit of hope and actually encourages me to keep going. Call me crazy, or delusional, but dreaming big can't hurt, as long as you don't get carried away. At this point, my real goal is just to finish my second draft, not necessarily write a best-seller (as if, right?), but why not aim high?

After all, a girl can dream, can't she?

Shower power

 I get some of my best ideas when I'm walking my dog...or when I'm taking a shower. Isn't that weird? I mean, the shower? Really? Today, while showering, I actually had an epiphany for my current WIP. I was so excited that as soon as I got out of the shower, I made a beeline for my laptop so I could write it all down. 

This wasn't the first time I had a great idea in the shower. I really wish they had waterproof laptops or writing pads or something, because I imagine I'd get a lot of work done while shampooing. 

But, seriously, what is it about the shower? Because I've heard of some other writers who get great ideas in the shower. Maybe while we're washing the dirt and oil out of our hair, we open up some room for thought. Hee hee. 

Words of wisdom

Forgive me for being obvious, but I love words. Especially when they're put together in the most perfect way that reading them aloud almost sounds like a melody. I also love inspirational quotes, sayings, mantras, etc. I found one today that really spoke to me. There's so much truth to this little saying, and I've actually thought this on many occasions, especially whenever I gave up on some project or goal. Next time I feel like procrastinating, I'm going to be thinking of this:

Keep writing!

"April is the cruellest month..."

 ...according to T.S. Eliot, and he was a smart man, so I'm going to take his word for it. However, smart people have often been wrong, so here's hoping April is a good month for everybody.

Happy April!

P.S. He spelled "cruelest" with two l's, so don't attack me for my spelling :P

P.P.S. April is also National Poetry Month, so try to write a poem a day. It's good writing practice. 

Does depression help with writing, or does writing help alleviate depression?

 I've kind of been "down in the dumps" lately. I've been "blue." Et cetera. All those expressions are so weird to me for some reason. Blue is actually one of my favorite colors, so it annoys me that it's associated with sadness. But, anyway.

I've been sad and anxious lately. I've had no motivation or energy to do anything, especially work, but the funny thing is that the one thing I've been doing consistently is working on my WIP, TAINTED FROST. I'm amazed that I even have the energy and inspiration to keep going when I don't have the energy for anything else. It's especially remarkable considering there is absolutely no guarantee that this manuscript will ever get published. And yet, I keep going. 

It makes me wonder if depression can somehow lead to inspiration....I should also add that after writing a scene, I feel a lot better. Peaceful. Calm. Just plain happy. Even if it only lasts a short while. 

The show must go on

 I found this gif on some random site, and I loved it so much that I wanted to share it with you guys. It basically illustrates (in a very adorable way--I love pink and princesses and makeup) my belief that you must never, ever give up. 

I know it's not exactly a revolutionary idea, and it's probably a huge cliche at this point, but it's true. The show must go on; just keep swimming; don't stop believing...you get the idea. Here it is: